THANK-YOU

I am going to be honest here, I probably never truly appreciated my friends until this year. I admit this with shame because it took a hazardous, turbulent year to make me realise that my friends are important to me. I always thought it was naive for people to think that they'd be friends forever and that after year 12 they are going to stay in contact with each other, and I guess this concept just drove a wedge between my relationships with the most wonderful people in my life.

 I can honestly believe now that my friends will be there when parts of my life turn gray, that now I'd rather not be lonely and that I am not lonely with this great support. In each of their own unique ways I know they are there for me, if it either being a tributed blog, talking on the phone, allowing themselves to be my own personal punching bag, sharing their awesome liking for sick youtube clips that make me crack up with laughter, by pulling a joke that only she can pull, by hugging me so tight that I know that it isn't actually that bad, by telling me to turn off the depressing music, by dropping by my house and being a "comadian", taking all my craptastic, bitchiness on msn due to fatigue though it isn't their fault and the best one is when they just sit there by your side at your most vulnerable of times in silence and though silent you always will know that they are there for you and will listen and support you.

It took me so long to look at them and truly think of them as part of my family and that they aren't one step down the podium, they aren't second best. Because they do not deserve that, they deserve way more. I may not be the best of friends but they put up with me which I'm grateful for because without them I may look like I have it together but their will always be a missing piece, a hole that not many can fill.

I guess I felt like writing this now because a friend, the skateboard angel, said "if you're at a party, you don't have to be bored because it is what you  make it" and I'm not delusional and I know full well he was talking about having fun at a party but life is what you make it, and I don't have to feel lonely if I just opened up to my friends, I have that support there, I just need to give them that chance.

It all started with do you remember...