The cracks beneath the ice...

i guess i should post something...its probs gonna be shit and I'm not gonna bother rhyming, haven't been feeling the creative spark lately so here goes nothing...

STEADFAST.
Is the word I think.
That courage to just keep moving.
That crippling sensation...
But yet it is that, that motivation.
Walking up the highest mountains
Even when in the pit of the valleys.
Though the jungle may look overwhelming, scary...overgrown.
There is nothing that you can't get through.

Cut. Slash. Whip.
Those words that are tougher than actions.
Those words that mean something.
Those words that are haunting memories.
But you find the light in the darkness.
You don't dwell but FIGHT.
You get a right hook, you give it ten times worse.
Show themwhat you are made of.
With the flashlight you see....
See out of the dark, out of the jungle...
Ocean, Freedom.

Wide. Blue. Mother Earth's womb.
Her creation, her comfort...what comfort.
Harsh waves, knock you back.
Just KEEP swimming.
Tread, Stroke, Cough.
The Big Blue drags you down.
Time and Time again.
You keep Going...keep MOVING

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The blue oceans iced over.
Tough as a brick wall but yet I see the fractures.
The ice cracks, a drop tears down the glacier.
It hurts.
But even still at least this message is dominant.
FIGHT. KEEP MOVING.

It all started with do you remember...

OMFG

Okay so yall are having a dandy time on your Sunday afternoon and are oblivious to what just happened. My blog and google account had been deleted accidentally *looking around hoping people don't point the finger at me* and I noticed how much I need this blog. I was frantic. FRANTIC I TELL YOU. Like i was worried all my work and posts would be gone. This is why I vow never to leave Blogdom. NEVER!!!
The worst part about it is I'm not technologically adept sooooooo this was hard, like mindblowing hard. It hurt. My mind.

You dirty minded people. Disgust me.

It all started with do you remember....and oh boy i will remember this :p

you people don't know anything

Fact: I am really tired
Fact: it is 6.27pm
Fact: I woke up at 5.30 am
Fact: Tonight can go two ways, I'm so tired by the time i get to this party I'm either dancing with my eyes closed or I am gonna go delusional and dance like a drunk.
Not Fact: I am not drunk
Fact: People want to be like me
Me: Whyyyyyyyyyyyyy?
Fact: People say the want my strength
Not Fact: I'm not strong (shhh don't tell anyone)
Fact: People think I'm smart
Fact: Real smart people are naturals
Not Fact: I'm not smart, I look to the books...its all in the books people
Fact: People think I'm this cute innocent, lovely, little girl
Fact: I am little...maybe cute but not lovely.
Fact: I am a bitch.
Fact: People are gonna get offended/angry/ frustrated/ exasperated by my attitude
Fact: I don't give a shit.
Fact: I am gonna regret posting this.
Fact: People say I'm incorruptible
Not Fact: That is the worst lie of all...

It all started with do you remember...

Confusious says...

If you know it, in your body, in your mind and in your heart (eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwww what a total cornball) just go with it because if you don't then how can you trust yourself to know anything, to be sure of anything.

But also he says....
If you can't remember why you are fighting then time is telling you, enough is enough and let go and move on....

HOW CONTRADICTIVE....see my predicament people?

No of course you don't. The disgust I remember, but the action remains hidden behind a wall of some sort and my brain can not unlock the big brass door to really truly remember.
No one remembers but I may remember, and because no one does I can not be sure if I'm accusing an innocent or I am turning a blind eye to something that was JUST NOT RIGHT.

It all started with do you remember...             (or what you don't remember)

how things can change

I wrote a poem this morning at 6.30am, yes dedicated. But I needed to and I was gonna post it on here though the funny thing is I'm not feeling that way anymore, it was quite deep like most of my stuff but right at this moment I am in euphoric state...loving life...i just can't.

It all started with do you remember...

soooooooooo....

did i miss the punchline? Because I'm not laughing...does it look like im laughing? No because then my head would be buzzing with happiness not shitty confusion.

Does it look like i want that? No.
Does it look like i care? No.
Do i care? Of course
Why? ....i guess just because.

You know one thing i dislike the most, being embarrassed...and every day i feel more of a fool....think about it for a while, then y'all can say sorry

sorry did i miss the punchline? Because I'm not laughing.
And I won't be anytime soon.

It all started with do you remember..

Learn your ABC's

This is how its supposed to be:

A sees B
B notices A
A and B look

NOT

A sees B
B notices A
B looks away and talks to C


supposed to be:

A talks to C
B glances at A a few times
C tells A what B is doing

NOT

A thinks of B
B keeps talking to C
B doesn't EVER look at A

supposed to be:

A looks at B again and smiles
B smiles at A
B and A smile at each other

NOT

A thinks will B smile back
B walks past not caring about A
A and B never smile at each other

supposed to be:

C nudges A
A says hello
B says hello back
A giggles to C
B tells D, E, F
C tells A
A blushes.

NOT

A thinks of B
B ignores A
B flirts with D, E, F
C consoles A
A is embarrassed.

it is supposed to be:

A asks B's name
B and A flirt
B gives number
A is content.

NOT

A sees B
B doesn't see A
B ignores A
A is very sad indeed.

It isn't supposed to be this huge feat to get A and B together, it doesn't have to be these games but a simple hi will suffice.
Don't waste your time on this and learn your A, B, C's

It all started with do you remember...