Another year has come to pass and  boy was it a roller coaster. I hadn't posted as much as last year, even though it was only six months I probably posted more. The reason for that was the meaning of this blog. I want to share things that others can take on as inspiration, advice or a cool idea, if I was upset or downtrodden I didn't want to splurge my feelings all over the internet. One it really isn't anybody's business and two people don't need to see it. Especially as there are kids who are so happy with what little they have and yet I mope around pitiful because my life seems so hard? It doesn't make sense and that is what is the issue with modern society. Perspective.
It would be an understatement for me to say that I have characteristically grown this year. If I thought last year I had such a growing experience it is a penny compared to this one. Everyone asked me what year 12 was like. I could honestly say it was the best and worst year of my life so far and this would have nothing to do with the actual year 12 work load. That I didn't stress on. It wasn't school but the social sector of my life that took a hold of my stress and shook it around a little. I had made so many memories especially with my media buddies producing films, or just the odd occurrences that would happen during a lunch time with my mates. This year I finally figured out who my true friends were and it wasn't easy. The five from last year, a few of them are still very important to me and would be considered in my top five this year, the coach, the vault and the free spirit are still very much there. Other friends have come and gone, we've fought and we've made up and it has opened my eyes to see more clearly each time.
There were many best moments during the year and the best came from the worst. I reckon this was the year i learnt more about myself, that I denied who I truly was and hid behind a mask of strength but in reality that was the worst lie of all. Most knew that and I wasn't trying to fool them at all, I was trying to fool myself and it worked for a certain amount of time but I learnt by doing that I wasn't being a true version of myself and whenever i wasn't, whenever i was a little bit of someone else it became detrimental to the relationships with my friends and family.
I made some decisions that I'm not proud of yet i do not regret any of it because it has made me come to realise who I want to be, a good person that someone can rely on and that someone can be honest to and trust. These decisions had some costly consequences that also made me realise what some people mean to me and how others shouldn't. Last year I ended on a note of unclarity and I was fine without knowing the answers but it was this year that through every decision i had made I figured them out. I know who I am and like my old self I am going to be so stubborn to stick to it. I have changed for the better. People reading this who are my friends probably thought i hadn't done that much bad but it isn't what I did but the feeling had from making those kind of decisions, the guilt and the sickness. It may not be bad for others but that just goes to show the person I am.
If I didn't have the friends and family I had I think this year would have been very different, sure the world isn't full of roses and sunshine but it never was supposed to be and as corny as it is I am glad I have the ability to allow to get knocked down in order to get back up stronger than before.
New Years Resolution: Be healthy for myself, I'm not talking about physically though that would come into it but mentally and emotionally just think more healthily, knowing and allowing people to care for you, because a wise man once told me that its okay to rely on someone and hold onto that rope, it is okay for them to pull you out when you feel like you are in quicksand, it is okay to get some help.

It all started with do you remember...